Sat today knowing its your day. But without the projector of memories I dont see you. I hear you I feel you but just cant see you…
Our friendship was not always plain sailing but I still feel your love like a radiator on a bitter day. True friendship like yours is so missed, Even at my worst when pushing all away as I did you were and are always there no matter what, If im Honest my head didnt always allow me to reslise this at the time.
as I have got older and with the value of hind sight dear friend there is none like you sis,I will always carry you in my heart knowing you come with me but I really do wish Id shown more respect and love whilst you were here. Only you and selected few know me truly. Taught me wisely and above all taught me to take me for me.
Im aware I Havent mentioned a name but that don’t matter cuz I’ll love you forever.. Big hugs babe miss you so much Happy Birthday xxx
This morning i sit and put fingers to keyboard not knowing were Im going or my point for this post. Sat here..Waiting…Cars zooming down the road one follows one follows another. Sitting on the edge of my bed with the remaining yet familier pain of hyper tight muscles pulling for all there worth leaving me feeling like I have little worth as I take the Pain killers perscribed knowing the pain is still there. feeling it still there. the world continues to go round and round with evidence of vison and sound.
Sat with the shakes my fingers chattering on the keys as the pain goes behind the knees all I want is to please those around and about me maybe bring some peace,a smile a laugh all desined for wilst on this path but with all this it must be said the indicator is pointing red so I go back to sleep
The ink had stoped fallled by myself.. At posting daily. somthing stopped me dead in my tracks it is i assume not visbal to the naked eye as I write Iknow this might seem odd even to me.
week 8 the first week since starting this were be it became difficallt were this was started as a happy accident Ididnt want to write to be honest and maybe the novelty had gone glad its not actully the case reading is still coming on allowing me away from daily life which im not glad this week was supossed to be cheese on #favouriterecipe which is a staple food in my life, love it and endvour to catch back upxxx
well here I sit this morning knowing that I havent kept up woth positve posts and im a day or two behind on a few other things I have However been Reading More. Alienora Taylors Books are truely works of art yhat then transipried to here were i now rhave enjoyed starting a Blog. this I will continue to do and It gives me great pleasure to be going to a event in the town were I live on world book day this year I feel it a need to celbrate the written and read word can really change out look on life on 2nd of april Alianora will be my first Gust In ehat I would love to become monthly for Writters and readers to shine a light on there words in spotlight
Up till a few days back I was posting every day with the Start of positive post and things like picture challenges and favorite recipe keeping me busy but ultimately the poetry and stories had dried up and to be honest I was starting to feel I had let myself down, Self doubt number one of life Little curve balls that comes out. Taunting my brain because I hadn’t posted anything really personal for a bit. Dont get me wrong I still was avidly reading thanks to amazon kindle app on my phone and the reader on word press but on the whole my productivity and input level had taken a break and I found myself playing Facebook games then giving myself a hard time for not being on here as much.
last night and tonight have been somewhat almost like a treasure map knowing showing me the way. As I sit here poised for another week I know that whatever happens I’m not alone
Preheat the oven to 180 C / Gas 4. Grease two 23cm/9in sandwich tins with butter and line with baking paper. Put the chocolate and 400g butter in a large, heatproof bowl set over a saucepan of simmering water. Heat gently until smooth but not hot. Stir together and remove from the heat.
Using a wooden spoon, beat in the caster and brown sugar. Gradually stir in the flour. Beat the eggs and the vanilla extract in a separate bowl, then beat well into the chocolate mixture. Turn the mixture into the prepared tins and spread out evenly.
Bake the cakes for about 40 minutes, or until a skewer inserted in the centre comes out clean. Leave to cool in the tin.
Meanwhile, make the filling and topping. Put the cocoa powder in a small bowl, add the boiling water and stir to form a smooth paste. Leave to cool. Put the butter and vanilla in a large bowl, sift in the icing sugar and beat with a wooden spoon until smooth. Beat in the cooled cocoa mixture.
When the cakes are cold, remove from the tins and sandwich together with half the filling. Swirl the remaining mixture over the top of the cake, then top with chocolate curls.